I am really scared. I and my groupmates haven't finished our finman project yet. Our defense in SAD is next next week. I don't know if the documents I have made are right. I have so many things to think about and it bothers me so much. I am afraid. My grade in finman is low. I'm afraid to fail. God..please help me.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
DespiteOf
Although nova, my niece is not really a good teacher since she is scolding me everytime I ask her about accounting, I am still fortunate to have such a roomate. I can ask her anytime. Not really anytime because I can't ask her if she's sleeping or taking a bath. What I meant is that I have an access. I can talk to her easily since we are in the same roof and in the same room.
"I don't know", I think that's her favorite statement everytime I ask favors. It's not that she's not answering my questions.I think that is her favorite line.
I like teasing her because she gets mad at me but I know that she's not really mad at me. But sometimes I stop teasing her because I'm afraid especially if her face and the tone of her voice are really serious. And then she gets mad at me again and I tease her again. I like calling her "autistic". It's not because she's autistic. It just suits her.hehehe.
She studies a lot like Jill. They always study. In terms of studies, Jill and Nova are alike. I am really the opposite.
We (I, Jill, Nova) have different attitudes and they are annoying most of the time. Jill is so committed with her course and it's kinda sucks. The way she view things. It is about pyschology and it is annoying sometimes. She even told me that I am a candidate for MR (Mentally Retarded) person. I am not mad because of that but I'm not saying that I am a mentally retarded person.OF COURSE I'M NOT.hehehehe.It just sucks when she includes psychology in our conversation. I don't hate psychology. I love it. But Jill is like she's confident to say that that person has this disorder or that person is a psycho.
Nova... this person is "I don't know".hehehe. She's good in accounting but she can't teach well. She doesn't know how to teach. Do you understand me? She's good but teaching is not really the thing for her.
Here comes my part.hehehe. I am so immature. I know. i admit. I am annoying. I know. I admit. I have this hobby of hurting other people. It's not that i am a sadist. It's just that i make jokes and i pretend to punch someone and i hit him/her. I don't mean that most of the time. But sometimes I really mean it.hehehe... I think i am hard to understand.hehehe... I can hardly follow instructions and it maybe annoys them.hehehe.
Despite of having differences.. I still enjoy our company. We argue. We talk so loud in our room. We are like cats and dogs most of the time. It is annoying most of the time...but I still enjoy the moments when we argue.hehehe
A million thanks
Feb.25,2008- This is the day when Shey taught me about my finman project. Honestly, I felt so sad because i'm not good at this field. Making financial statements is not my type. That's why I'm so thankful because someone helped me. I want to thank God for sending an angel to help me about my problem. She really made an effort to teach me. Thank you.Thank you.Thank you Shey. I don't know if I can use what she did because I might redo it due to changes in the project. But I am still greatful. I somehow felt that I am blessed. A million thanks to the Lord and to Shey.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
confused
I just don't understand what I am doing. I tried but I only end up being confused everytime I try to answer it. We have this project in finman that we have to pass maybe this week. I and my groupmates haven't started yet. Yes.I am pressured. I have resources already. I know what are the requirements but I don't know how to make it. I really tried but I guess my intelligence in that field is really low. I am really confused, pressured and worried. How can I make this thing? Tell me.. In case you can help me with my problem.
Monday, February 11, 2008
why
Why is it people don't recognize my effort? I know I am not like them. I know they are better than me. I am also trying my best like them. It is just sad to know that whatever I do, people won't appreciate my little effort. I know I'm not good at it..but I am not that dumb.. People make me feel so dumb and it's depressing. I know they have more sleepless nights than me... But I also have those nights.. I am trying my best like what they're doing... but I guess my best is not as good as theirs...
School Life
I am not the type of a person who is really serious about my studies. I am not a geek. I don’t read a lot. I mean, I don’t like to read. It makes me sleepy just by looking at the cover of my Math books. Just like what my Auntie told us “Reading books in school is the best sleeping pill in the world.” I don’t know why I can’t study like the way my sister and my niece study. They are so serious. They always read their books. And guess what I’m doing? I go to my bed and sleep. I watch anime if no one is using the computer. I am too lazy to study. I know I am not really committed with my studies but it doesn’t mean I am ignoring it. God knows that I do not want to fail for the second time. HE knows that even if I act this way I still value my studies.
I thought school is very boring. I am doing the same things. I go to school, I go to my classes, and pretending that I am listening to the teachers. I really get tired when the teachers make their discussions. It makes me so sleepy. It is totally boring but when I extend my world into something else then that would be the time I find school really interesting. I’m not a part of an anti-cheating club because I am a cheater. Even though I became a cheater when I was still in elementary I am still scared to do that but that fear did not hinder me to leave cheating alone. I know it is bad but as a student like me, it’s really helpful. The most interesting part is when I look at the teacher’s face and when the teacher is not looking at me I will take the opportunity to look at my seatmate’s paper. If I don’t understand my seatmate’s hand writing I will ask him/her and then we both laugh because we almost got caught. It is funny because I am not the only one doing it, sometimes I and my classmates join forces and make some ways just for us to copy answers. I experience throwing some papers and making kodigos but it was in high school. The most frequent strategy I use is by asking my classmates’ answers. I also experience getting the paper of my seatmate. When I cheat I feel scared and my heart beats so fast but I am happy because the excitement is there, it comes during the process of cheating I am happy because my classmates are not greedy. We help each other to survive and I am thankful for that.
Sometimes we cheat because we are too lazy to study. But we cheat most of the time because the lessons are too difficult to handle. Well the teachers can’t blame us because they are the ones who make difficult questions during exams.
I am a cheater but I don't cheat all the time. I also give myself a time to study. I also know that cheating is not the only solution to my problems.
I am not really bad but I really get so excited when I hear some rumors. I like gossiping because, first of all I can gather some information, and second of all it makes me so alive even though I’m tired and sleepy. I like it when I and my friends meet just to discuss about rumors. The best part is when I hear some shocking revelations that I never expected. I am not saying that the only thing we do is discuss about it. I and my friends also talk about other things like anime and anime and anime. We’re not talking about boys. It is not our interest. Well, it’s not what you think it is. Of course we like boys but I think we are really so immature not to talk about them because the only things we think about are anime, rumors and studies. Yes, you hear it right I also think about my studies.
I am the type of person who doesn’t belong to many groups of friends I have other friends but I only belong to one group. I don’t actually extend my relationship with other people. I am not closed to all my classmates but as the time goes by I can somehow talk to some of them unlike before. I hate grouping especially if I don’t like my group mates but I’m still thankful because with this I can communicate to others.
There are so many things I experience in school, so many that even though the lessons are torturing me I tend to ignore them because of the other things that makes my school life really interesting.
I thought school is very boring. I am doing the same things. I go to school, I go to my classes, and pretending that I am listening to the teachers. I really get tired when the teachers make their discussions. It makes me so sleepy. It is totally boring but when I extend my world into something else then that would be the time I find school really interesting. I’m not a part of an anti-cheating club because I am a cheater. Even though I became a cheater when I was still in elementary I am still scared to do that but that fear did not hinder me to leave cheating alone. I know it is bad but as a student like me, it’s really helpful. The most interesting part is when I look at the teacher’s face and when the teacher is not looking at me I will take the opportunity to look at my seatmate’s paper. If I don’t understand my seatmate’s hand writing I will ask him/her and then we both laugh because we almost got caught. It is funny because I am not the only one doing it, sometimes I and my classmates join forces and make some ways just for us to copy answers. I experience throwing some papers and making kodigos but it was in high school. The most frequent strategy I use is by asking my classmates’ answers. I also experience getting the paper of my seatmate. When I cheat I feel scared and my heart beats so fast but I am happy because the excitement is there, it comes during the process of cheating I am happy because my classmates are not greedy. We help each other to survive and I am thankful for that.
Sometimes we cheat because we are too lazy to study. But we cheat most of the time because the lessons are too difficult to handle. Well the teachers can’t blame us because they are the ones who make difficult questions during exams.
I am a cheater but I don't cheat all the time. I also give myself a time to study. I also know that cheating is not the only solution to my problems.
I am not really bad but I really get so excited when I hear some rumors. I like gossiping because, first of all I can gather some information, and second of all it makes me so alive even though I’m tired and sleepy. I like it when I and my friends meet just to discuss about rumors. The best part is when I hear some shocking revelations that I never expected. I am not saying that the only thing we do is discuss about it. I and my friends also talk about other things like anime and anime and anime. We’re not talking about boys. It is not our interest. Well, it’s not what you think it is. Of course we like boys but I think we are really so immature not to talk about them because the only things we think about are anime, rumors and studies. Yes, you hear it right I also think about my studies.
I am the type of person who doesn’t belong to many groups of friends I have other friends but I only belong to one group. I don’t actually extend my relationship with other people. I am not closed to all my classmates but as the time goes by I can somehow talk to some of them unlike before. I hate grouping especially if I don’t like my group mates but I’m still thankful because with this I can communicate to others.
There are so many things I experience in school, so many that even though the lessons are torturing me I tend to ignore them because of the other things that makes my school life really interesting.
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