Monday, February 11, 2008

School Life

I am not the type of a person who is really serious about my studies. I am not a geek. I don’t read a lot. I mean, I don’t like to read. It makes me sleepy just by looking at the cover of my Math books. Just like what my Auntie told us “Reading books in school is the best sleeping pill in the world.” I don’t know why I can’t study like the way my sister and my niece study. They are so serious. They always read their books. And guess what I’m doing? I go to my bed and sleep. I watch anime if no one is using the computer. I am too lazy to study. I know I am not really committed with my studies but it doesn’t mean I am ignoring it. God knows that I do not want to fail for the second time. HE knows that even if I act this way I still value my studies.
I thought school is very boring. I am doing the same things. I go to school, I go to my classes, and pretending that I am listening to the teachers. I really get tired when the teachers make their discussions. It makes me so sleepy. It is totally boring but when I extend my world into something else then that would be the time I find school really interesting. I’m not a part of an anti-cheating club because I am a cheater. Even though I became a cheater when I was still in elementary I am still scared to do that but that fear did not hinder me to leave cheating alone. I know it is bad but as a student like me, it’s really helpful. The most interesting part is when I look at the teacher’s face and when the teacher is not looking at me I will take the opportunity to look at my seatmate’s paper. If I don’t understand my seatmate’s hand writing I will ask him/her and then we both laugh because we almost got caught. It is funny because I am not the only one doing it, sometimes I and my classmates join forces and make some ways just for us to copy answers. I experience throwing some papers and making kodigos but it was in high school. The most frequent strategy I use is by asking my classmates’ answers. I also experience getting the paper of my seatmate. When I cheat I feel scared and my heart beats so fast but I am happy because the excitement is there, it comes during the process of cheating I am happy because my classmates are not greedy. We help each other to survive and I am thankful for that.
Sometimes we cheat because we are too lazy to study. But we cheat most of the time because the lessons are too difficult to handle. Well the teachers can’t blame us because they are the ones who make difficult questions during exams.
I am a cheater but I don't cheat all the time. I also give myself a time to study. I also know that cheating is not the only solution to my problems.
I am not really bad but I really get so excited when I hear some rumors. I like gossiping because, first of all I can gather some information, and second of all it makes me so alive even though I’m tired and sleepy. I like it when I and my friends meet just to discuss about rumors. The best part is when I hear some shocking revelations that I never expected. I am not saying that the only thing we do is discuss about it. I and my friends also talk about other things like anime and anime and anime. We’re not talking about boys. It is not our interest. Well, it’s not what you think it is. Of course we like boys but I think we are really so immature not to talk about them because the only things we think about are anime, rumors and studies. Yes, you hear it right I also think about my studies.
I am the type of person who doesn’t belong to many groups of friends I have other friends but I only belong to one group. I don’t actually extend my relationship with other people. I am not closed to all my classmates but as the time goes by I can somehow talk to some of them unlike before. I hate grouping especially if I don’t like my group mates but I’m still thankful because with this I can communicate to others.
There are so many things I experience in school, so many that even though the lessons are torturing me I tend to ignore them because of the other things that makes my school life really interesting.

No comments: